This post is implying that I haven’t grown up, which I find to be perfectly acceptable. After all, isn’t 40 (which I’m NOT yet) supposed to be the new 20-something. Right? Right. So I still have plenty of time to figure out what I want to be. My everyday paying job that brings in the bacon, and since starting Crossfit, we eat A LOT of bacon, states that I am in sales…the sale of hair to be specific. Yes, I said hair. Don’t get me wrong I LOVE my job. It’s an awesome job and I have an awesome boss who does a great job at constantly motivating me and praising me, which makes it so much easier to “clock in” everyday! However, I have dreams…a whole lot of BIG dreams. I want my own business, I want to be successful in something that I have done and created and planned. And boy do I have plans…in a perfect world my partner in crime (and cooking, and painting and gardening and crafts and just about everything) Kelsey and I would have a cute little restaurant with a co-op market attached to it, where we would serve the most amazingly healthy and tasty food and sell the freshest local veggies and meats around. Along with our restaurant which would have an equally cute name like, Eat at Kim and Kelsey’s, (ok, we are working on that) we would also have a furniture business, because you know, we are going to BUILD furniture AND refinish and go to flea markets and refurbish old things…we actually do have a cute name for that, but I can’t tell y’all yet. (Thanks Hannah Beth!)
My boutique, was the start of my dream. Leilani B was supposed to be that dream come true, that open door of opportunity into owning my own business. The door was open, but the opportunity wasn’t exactly what we hoped it would be. It seems there is a crowd all trying to fit through that door and with all of those people barging in on my dream, it just doesn’t feel very “dreamy” anymore. Vendors that we buy our clothes from are raising prices and customers that shop with us don’t want to spend more money. We have lost so much money and it’s tough not to be discouraged and just quit. But forward we will go.
One day I’m going to wake up in a house on about 5-50 acres, and I’m going to look over at my husband who is such a hunk and I’m going to tell him it’s time to get up and go feed the pigs…or cows…horses, camels, you can pretty much insert any animal you would like here. Then I’m going to go out to my workshop where Kelsey will already be (because of course she has her own little house right there) and we are going to make beautiful furniture and sell beautiful items that we have found and bought through local women who are also trying to live THEIR dreams. Part of living our dream is making sure that we help other dreams come true. And of course we will cook, we will cook and bake and grill and chop and eat, because we are foodies and we will invite you all over, because we also have an open door.
There are a lot of other parts to this dream…my kids will be just wonderful. They will never talk back and will do all of their chores without complaint. Ok, that may be a little too far fetched. I will settle with them just being the great kids that they are now…minus MineCraft…in my perfect world that game does not exist. Also in my perfect world Tyler will have his own Crossfit box, maybe it could be a branch of the one we are at now…who knows. We love our new little Crossfit family! He wouldn’t come home stressed, just a little achy. Kelsey would meet and marry the most amazing guy, who would be handsome and a rancher/farmer type guy who also loves monkeys and dogs and all kinds of animals and he would also be a former MLB player. I guess if he has a monkey he doesn’t HAVE to be a baseball player…although that would definitely be a perk, if he Crossfits we will accept him in the cult…ahem…family.
Anyway, my point is, that I’m not quitting. I’m not giving up on my dream. It may end up being quite ironic if I go full circle and end up back in remodeling/refinishing since I did get a degree in Interior Design yet never fully used it. So, when you see me posting these changes, please don’t roll your eyes and say, “there goes Kim again, onto another project…” My projects are just steps towards making my dreams come true.
I see myself as a dreamer that is going to DO…A LOT. And I’m not quitting until I’m done dreaming….which may take a very long time. Like I said, when I grow up I want to be…..